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About 14 years ago I started my comic career with Dreamwave. After that I moved onto Nelvana for a while and worked on two shows. During that I started with UDON where I still am. In 2011 I started to teach at Seneca College in Toronto.

Over the years you've heard me belly ache about my mixed feelings about what I work on and what type of rhetorical acrobatics I do to justifiy it to myself. For the most part it's to pay the bills and that it's just what I do until something else comes along.  I never claim that anything I work on is representory of my moral beliefs or religion for that matter nor do I try to excuse myself under the guise of some self serving excuse, it just simply is my situation.

I'm happy for all the work I have and am doing and I do it as well as I possibly can. I am the sole provider for my family and I thank God for all the work that i do have and my thanks and appreciation manifests itself in my effort to try and do the best I can.

A sigh of relief came with teaching where the more benign and neutral feel of teaching helped me separate myself from the context and concentrate on the execution. Teaching really is a lot of fun for the most part, and I derive a great deal of amusement by switching up the ciriculum often to keep my students on their toes. I'm not an instructor who just sits on what ever he did last year and barfs it out again rather if I can I do the projects with them if I have time and change it yearly to keep it fresh.

One of the perks of working at school was that Jim very graciously and generously offered a place in his office for me to set up shop as keeping up with UDON work and teaching would be hard to do from my home and school which are far apart. I managed to get vast amounts of work done there and still troll the students and help as well.

Another perk was that I learned CS5 and it forced me to teach things that i had never done before and explore techniques that enriched me more than my students I feel. In fact, I'm sure if you asked my students, they might say that on occassion it felt as though I was trying to learn as fast as them in their youth. I compete with them in a way that betters  my skill set, not in a vindictive way.

However, with increased work load and growing family, the strain started to really show it's face. My skin started to get really bad, migrains, a lot of stress and frustration, and very severe family problems really forced me to rethink my situation. On top of this i realized that I was escaping all this by playing around on BlogTV with my fans who so eagerly would pat my ego and give me unconditional support. While this was nice, it was not something that would force me to reassess my life, and so during Ramadan I stopped it altogether. After that, things started to change  drastically.

I really let go after a certain point, and tried to calm down as my kids were suffering seeing their dad stressed and my relationship with wife was also in trouble because of all these things. I prayed to Allah after the Eids and really really tried to critically implement a strategy to find my weaknesses and low points and combat them.

In Decemeber, when I had shipped off my family to NJ and the school was shut down for holidays for 2 weeks, I started 5th Capsule again. I managed to get 16 pages done, showing no one. When those pages were done which I did in full isolation, I had to restart school, my family came back and it came to a tidy and abrupt end.

Only then did I remember what the love of drawing was, nothing else could compare to what I was working on. Nothing else mattered when I was working on it, because I was doing it for a purpose that was deeply seeded in my heart. Many years went by where I had just developed a hard and callous shell to contend with the throws of incompatibility of my beliefs and work situation. But 5C was where i could reconcile it.

Unfortunately in one way I got lumped on another class unexpectedly for this semester which dramatically added to my work load. Stress again started to peak, but did not take its toll on my home life as now I had a "why" to give me a light at the end of the tunnel. I needed to get my own office again, so that I coud assure myself that complete isolation to work on it. But that wasn't the only reason at all...

Many a night it would happen that I would sneak into 'the girl's room' to see my two little daughters sleeping and actually weep softly so as not wake them at the realization they are growing up so fast. It sounds so cliche, but I swear I was bottle feeding my eldest just yesterday. There was a time where she couldnt speak yet, or walk, and now she is growing so fast and learning. One day she'll get married, have her own family, avoid the most viscious parts of life hopefully and leave this world just like all of us. And I'm missing this!

I leave for work very early because I use the bus, and I get home fairly late often tired and weary of people in general. They see my either rushing out the door, or smeared on the floor. When I had my own office, Waifu and my eldest would come and see me  as i was only 5 minutes away by car and just 19 mins walking. I needed that again, not only for my own selfish artistic pursuits, but for my daughters and wifes sake.

So I prayed, and within 2 weeks I found an office at a ridiculous price in the best area closer than the last one and cheaper! I signed the lease, I signed the cheques and I will move in next month God willing.

Thus, I am dubbing this the next level. So many things have forced me to take more chances and embrace change which I would fear before. I feel like after spending hours in traffic, I can see the highway, and it's clear, I can see it!! I'm almost there, I feel a surge of power pushing me, I feel the rush of youth, opportunity, and change....

I'm almost there! I'm almost there...
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Teakster Featured By Owner May 19, 2013  Professional General Artist
Good luck with your future and I will make dua to make things easier for you! :)
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Sirius-Sam Featured By Owner Apr 11, 2013  Hobbyist
Good Luck man I wish I had your problems.
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fan4battle Featured By Owner Mar 24, 2013
Appreciated!
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JavelinCreative Featured By Owner Mar 24, 2013  Professional Digital Artist
Yes Bruddah, I feel like things can only go so low until they change one day and do a complete 180 and finally start getting better.

Enjoy the office, your time with your family, and most definitely the artistic drive you've renewed. It's been a long time coming, but, like you said man, you're almost there!
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DDT87 Featured By Owner Mar 23, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
I feel troubled as well, rigth now I must find a way to earn a living and I'm still working of my skills in order to start my first comic, sometimes I feel too old even if 25 years aren't that many or just plain unable to do anithing at all and of course, every day feel like a wasted one...

I suppose that I can learn something by someone older than me and with a stronger will that I have now.

Thanks for the inspiration, you deserved to find a good office near your home, you're almost there, you can do it!^^
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Xepher06 Featured By Owner Mar 22, 2013
Wow. I can't even imagine how that must have felt, since i do not have such responsibility yet. I am glad you were able to sort out your issues and that things have turned out well! I will keep wishing you happiness in your life. :)
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NuclearConvoy Featured By Owner Mar 22, 2013
All I can say is that I am happy for you and I really look forward to seeing the product of all this passion.
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JC-Fashion Featured By Owner Mar 22, 2013
I've been a big fan of yours for a long time, and I hope you get nothing but the best.
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SketchProof Featured By Owner Mar 22, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
Life is always going to have its ups and downs. You should feel proud that you are able to handle such situations when they build up. I mean, we all have to deal with them for a while until some great opportunity shows itself.

I've been living with three roommates now going on 10 months now and I have to live in the living room where I have no sort of privacy what-so-ever and it is hard to work on projects when I feel I have too much going on. My roommates are great and all, but I also have to be in work at 4AM almost everyday, so it was hard for a while to get decent sleep because they would be in and out of their rooms in the middle of the night and it would wake me up and would never get enough sleep. But finally I took steps to look into moving out and I looked hard to find something cheap and close to my job. I ended up finding something, but I won't move out till the end of April. And even though rent is cheaper than most places I looked into, I still have utilities to worry about that will add to my overall rent and I don't make a lot, but it's a chance I'm willing to take and hope things work out for the best. I just finally had it with living the way I've been living for sometime now and just want my own peace and quiet for once.

So I feel where you are coming from man. Hope things continue to go your way before any more BS hits again lol
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Omar-Dogan Featured By Owner Mar 22, 2013  Professional General Artist
peace of mind is expensive sometimes, but worth it.
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SketchProof Featured By Owner Mar 22, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
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tanxorcastle Featured By Owner Mar 22, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Although quite a common story doesn't make it any less inspirational. A mans got to do what a mans got to do, and that's exactly what you are doing Omar. Keep up the hard work brother! All of your fans including myself support you 100%!:D
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DelphicArt Featured By Owner Mar 22, 2013  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Mashallah! I'm so glad to hear that things are working out for you man, May Allah continue to bless you, inshallah!
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charfan4evr Featured By Owner Mar 22, 2013  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Yessss there is a solution to a neverending problem! I'm so glad to see you've made it there. And like the others said, thank you for sharing such an inspiring story.
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A4ArtStuff Featured By Owner Mar 22, 2013  Professional General Artist
I'm happy things are working out! And it's very inspiring/motivating.
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Jiekobu Featured By Owner Mar 22, 2013  Student Digital Artist
wow ...................This is inspirational.

This helped me in a way if thee is a light at the end of the tunnel. Then I need to see this thing through to the end and find my Light

Thanks Omar
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Leonidas666 Featured By Owner Mar 22, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Inspiring... hope all works out! You deserve all the best. :D
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arger Featured By Owner Mar 22, 2013  Professional Digital Artist
Good things happen to good people :)
I wish you the best in this new step of life, Omar, I admire your work and now that you tell us you'r story, I'm sure that you're not only a great artist, but also a great person. :)
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OHdomiNOEZ Featured By Owner Mar 22, 2013  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
we're all rooting for you! :) i'm sorry that it sounds like you've had a couple of rough spots, but if your prayer pushed it through, then it was meant to happen! :)
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kitty-eared-girl Featured By Owner Mar 22, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
You're a great man. There are many out there struggling and suffering from the same kind of work/life-related stressors, but they don't know how to handle it, typically taking it out on those around them and ultimately losing everything. While you spoke mainly of the hard times, your entry really warmed my heart. It brightens my day to hear that there are still good people in the world who are focused on family.

I'm so glad that you've found a way to balance everything in your life, and I hope others who read this in similar situations can learn from you.
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Zerro Featured By Owner Mar 22, 2013
Hard work, dedication and faith pay off my friend. Just remember to take off time for your girls, especially for birthdays and holidays. The world's a confusing place without the guidance of a father. Obviously, everything you're doing is to support them but, maybe every now and then, a project could be postponed a day or two or papers can be graded later so that you could just be home with your kids. People seem a bit more understanding when you tell them that you haven't spent a lot of time with the fam lately.

Anyways, keep your head up brother. You've accomplished so much already and still have the rest of your life ahead of you.
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N8Dogg5k Featured By Owner Mar 22, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
Go Omar! Just go brother! You have my full support!
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Amaniwolf Featured By Owner Mar 22, 2013
Keep pushing and always keep in mind what is most precious in your life. Too many people lose track and fall into despair. I wish you all the best, may the lord watch over you.
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ragu10 Featured By Owner Mar 22, 2013
you can do it omar, you were an awesome instructer
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MrSrone Featured By Owner Mar 22, 2013
Never give up! if you have reached this far, you mustnīt look back. I'm happy that finally you that God shows you your highway. God Bless you.
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SencilSketches Featured By Owner Mar 22, 2013  Professional General Artist
I'd love to have you as a teacher.
Your positive attitude and willingness to become better (at what they do and as a person) is exactly what everyone needs around them to make them feel they should do the same.

Showing that stress and hard times will come; but with perseverance it can be overcome.
Good on you!
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Myselfsama Featured By Owner Mar 22, 2013  Student Digital Artist
I understand why you do what you do. I respect you alot as a fellow artist, inspiration and friend. I'm happy to hear that your spending more time with your family, I think you deserve that. Though I havent been around on blog tv for a long time because of life, I still remember alot of good times, like "bad man time" lol. I wish you the best of luck.

~M
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Brandokin-Skyhopper Featured By Owner Mar 22, 2013  Hobbyist
That was, so touching. . . I actually teared up. I'm so happy for you, my prayers are with you and your family. God bless.
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BTrinidad Featured By Owner Mar 22, 2013  Hobbyist
Wow was a bit sad to hear that you were going through a tough time there, but really glad to see things are improving for you man. And hope that this "next level" is only the beginning of new and better things to come! I wish the best to you and your family!
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Courtnee-Blackmon Featured By Owner Mar 21, 2013  Professional
I can definitely understand when it comes to your own comic. Nothing compares to working on something you love, the feel of molding something great that's not just motivated by money.

Prayer is great! Also just being aware when the creator is talking to you in his subtle way. I swear in two of the books I skimmed through yesterday while at Barnes and Nobles, the advice was to not work when your tired because it want be enjoyable when you do. Was it God, I think so.

Hope to be collecting 5C soon!
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Meeowy Featured By Owner Mar 21, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
there is power in prayer. I am really happy and relieved for you as I understand the stress of trying to find balance of work, social life, family and then still personal time. it really almost seems there is no time even for God anymore.

keep strong and know that hard work pays off
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peterryczkowski Featured By Owner Mar 21, 2013  Professional Digital Artist
you can play all you want after your kids leave for their own lives. the memories will keep you sane in an empty house. so dont miss them now or your days will be very lonely.
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bam217 Featured By Owner Mar 21, 2013  Student Traditional Artist
Wow. Just wow.
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The-OneChanbara Featured By Owner Mar 21, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
More power to you! I consider you my idol and to see you in such a, well, human level XD I can literally feel the weight slowly lifting off of you in the words you spoke. You are in my prayers and may the success you seek find you first.
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raxom90 Featured By Owner Mar 21, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
May Allah Bless you brother, I pray for you to succeed in your career and life "Never Stop Never Give Up." you're our hero.
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PhunPhishTiger Featured By Owner Mar 21, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
This sounds very familiar...well, the light at the end of the tunnel bit. I have a pretty good idea of how you feel, and I'm glad things are shapin' up for you, man. Keep on keepin' on! :D
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Komikino Featured By Owner Mar 21, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
I hear you about the kids, dude. I remember carrying my girl to her preschool when she was 2 years I old. I told myself that one of the saddest days of my life would be the day I could no longer carry her or pick her up anymore. She is almost 8 and it pains me not to be able to pick her up like I used to. It makes me sad and also she is 60 some pounds so that is too much to haul around. LOL. But yeah, be there for the family, enjoy the times together.
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Bryce1350 Featured By Owner Mar 21, 2013  Student Traditional Artist
That was nice to read. Glad you've gotten this far and happy to hear about the start of this "new level" in your life! Keep at it! :D

Btw, what specifically do you teach? Just wondering. ^^;
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Uro-boro Featured By Owner Mar 21, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
This is great news! It's good to know that you can take a step back and see where you are, were you want to go and set foot in that direction.
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mynando Featured By Owner Mar 21, 2013  Professional Interface Designer
GO, MAN, GO!!!
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LordNobleheart Featured By Owner Mar 21, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
Your story has my personal quote written all over it... "In the end, I will win."
Be blessed and be a blessing my friend.
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abriy Featured By Owner Mar 21, 2013  Professional Traditional Artist
Best of luck to you and your family! :blowkiss: Artists go through a lot of tough times,but we grow so much through them :) keep on,keep on.
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Alvaria-Eleven Featured By Owner Mar 21, 2013  Student Interface Designer
I'm very excited for you Omar, especially since you've given us this glimpse into the journey that you've made.
I wish you the best of luck in the future :
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Kencho Featured By Owner Mar 21, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Good luck at this new level! :D
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ToraKingz Featured By Owner Mar 21, 2013  Student General Artist
Keep at it Omar ;D

As I am
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Dekamaster Featured By Owner Mar 21, 2013
I'm glad to hear you are doing well Omar. I hope to enjoy your new office. Good things are on its way man.
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WolfofEpicness Featured By Owner Mar 21, 2013  Student Traditional Artist
touching story, you should wright an auto-biography xD
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Chronorin Featured By Owner Mar 21, 2013  Professional Digital Artist
That's awesome, sir.
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