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The good ol' days

Journal Entry: Tue Jul 15, 2014, 11:04 PM
I remember a time when I would come on here routinely and vent all my feelings for no other reason than just that.

I think part of the reason I felt the need to do that here is because in my mind, you liking my art means potentially you like me as a person. This is not necessarily the case, but maybe in some instances it is.

Since a while back when all of us UDON folks went off to our own places away from a centralized studio, I've started to feel a sort of distance from the scene and my cohorts. As time went on, I got married and now have two kids, while manyof my coworkers don't and that is not a chastisement.

However, having a family of your own is a full time thing and one that needs constant communication and planning to get the most of. Many things that seem so unclear manifest themselves only well after the point, and all in all its a learning game that never stops.

Because of a number of factors, I also just turned off all external media out of sheer disinterest. I never watched tv and it has been turned off in our home for over one year. I want to throw it out, its and old CRT Trinitron. I stopped reading any manga or books, stopped playing any video games, and I don't have an interest in movies.

I said to myself, be the one to make the story and entertainment, not imbibe it. And as a result you have 5C.

What this means is that many a time I have nothing at all in common to talk to my cohorts about, since most of what they'll talk about is entertainment. I am concerned about my kids and my marriage and those are distant issues they don't care to relate to or can't even if they wanted to. I am not laying judgement, but I assure you it is a fact many folks nowadays go sailing into their thirties with no desire for marriage or kids whatsoever. That's their choice and I respect it.

But obviously, this creates a rift. I've been dubbed responsible, and I actually heard things like " you have kids? But you're a young guy!" when I was 32. It's lifestyle choice, and everyone is allowed to choice what they like and reap the rewards and consequences alike.

Now this is where you guys come in.

When you guys comment on my art, especially on 5th Capsule, I really get a lot of support. I mean, I look forward to your comments. My day is basically in complete silence, I just work and am left with my thoughts, I get home and spend time with my family, but again none of the things I love can be discussed with ease or understanding, and I am talking about art. My wife isn't an artist, and we talk mostly about family stuff and other things.

I've made my decisions on life and have no regrets, though it has left me a bit of an oddball in the industry in a way. I have no close friends that I talk to on the norm as we no longer have anything in common and my time is so limited and they live far away, but having you guys comment and interact really makes my day.

It really does help me a lot. You may see yourselves as fans, but a good deal of you I consider friends because you actually care what I'm doing, how I'm progressing, and my striving.

So here's to you guys, I appreciate you and hope all of you have great things in your life whatever you chose and that I can at the very least provide you with decent entertainment!

Asalaamu Alaikum = Peace be upon you!

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DarkJazmin11 Featured By Owner Jul 20, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
Late reply is late.  Why people think having kids at age 32 is YOUNG.... Really? What you choose? Destroying your childhood having kids at age 16 like every gals in the world or do what? :| Really?! Nothing wrong with that. The aqe is perfectly, important is to have someone who loves you, but I totally understand you about the art support. Non artists in our lives it makes really difficult to keep ourselves  motivated, not even Mother Nature, Animes, Mangas or whatever it made us motivate will help us. Why? We need people's support, need their warm comments and cheers to lift us up and push us from behind to continue doing whatever we love doing it, first for us and the for the others. I know you have responsabilities, but don't close/isolate yourself from the world, even if you are an adult, you still are  the kid from the inside, don't forget the reason you live, the reason you doing all this. Supporting is very important, you have it and I wish you can have more. Do things for yourself, live for yourself and family and keep the talent high for your friends who are supporting you, because I SUPPORT GOOD and EPIC DRAWING of yours man! Quality, true art and devotion! Cheers! :ahoy:
MoonlitCrescent Featured By Owner Jul 19, 2014
Aww, we all loves you too :hug:
jagged-eye Featured By Owner Jul 18, 2014  Professional Photographer
There are never clear roads for anyone in this life. If life was easy they would call it "easy" instead of "life". You are making your own path and that can be often a scary lonely road. As people age I have noted a serious drift away from anything they used to love or obsess about. This seems like a normal symptom of the day to day wear down grind we all go though. It is not a healthy issue but I think it has a lot to do with how we become more and more disconnected from one another. Even our own spouses!

Relationships take effort and energy at any level, friend, family, or business. Ask yourself, when was the last time you made the effort to actually call a friend or family member?  With our mass media pop culture it is easy to mistake reading someones status update as genuine interest in that person! There is no effort in liking something someone said. It takes real courage to face people in public these days and actually deal with the chatter and silence of a true conversation! Show interest in others and they might return the favor.

It takes even more energy to take actual time and actually listen to someone else without thinking about your next sentence about yourself! Sharing comfortable silence? That barely exists! How often when you are with friends do you see them go for their cell phones and ipad's to play a game or check their status while the uncomfortable lull in the conversation hangs overhead?  It is a horrible habit and disrespectful in my own mind. Take a look around your family, maybe that is what is happening and where some of your home disconnect is stemming from? When my friends agree to come hang at my home and I see the lull bring out the phones I actually make a verbal note about it and ask them to put them away, like we were in grade school. They may still day dream and not pay attention to what we are talking about in the moment but at least there is one less distraction.

 In the end you have your own passions, and it is rare to share them with the ones you love. Love your passion but do not expect others to understand them or share them with you. It is like trying to force a horse to drink after you brought them to water. Keep communication up to the best of your ability and never give up what makes you unique. In the end you will regret it and hate yourself and others for it.

You know what is important to you. Follow your heart. JE
Omar-Dogan Featured By Owner Jul 22, 2014  Professional General Artist
I do follow my heart.
elsevilla Featured By Owner Jul 18, 2014  Professional Digital Artist
I dont think its healthy to destroy your inner child man, why not watch new anime with your kids, i do that all the time with my two nieces of 6 and 3 years old, and they love it. Remember that art its to be informed of whats going on in the media, for example, its like being a doctor. Each day new techniques in medicine comes out, so doctors needs to study and be updated, or younger patients will start going to other doctors because you will be outdated. Its like a knife, you need to sharp it once in a while.

Hope to see ya at the con in san diego, you are going right? We can talk about this with a coke drink or something, its an interesting topic, will be really cool to heard your opinion.

And yeah we all are on the same boat, call me crazy but sometimes i talk to myself while i draw, ad the strangest thing "i reply".
Omar-Dogan Featured By Owner Jul 18, 2014  Professional General Artist
Good points loco!

Next year I'll be at SDCC man, and we'll have a sketch session.
elsevilla Featured By Owner Jul 18, 2014  Professional Digital Artist
Damn, who is coming this year?
mtcomic Featured By Owner Jul 18, 2014
I agree with you.  Creating ideas in a vacuum is not a long-term solution.  Eventually you have to turn back to the world to get some inspiration.  Quitting anime and manga, however, is not a big loss.  There is very little inspiration from that department nowadays, and most stories are rather derivative.
elsevilla Featured By Owner Jul 18, 2014  Professional Digital Artist
Lets say you are right, and i go an live all my entire life in an island, then i return with this idea of giants trying to eat people inside a land covered with big walls, then realize Shingeki already did this. To create something original, you need to see what its on the market and do the thing you think they need. I dont say you must copy what you see in anime or manga, im saying you need an anchor with reality market, because artists ideas age faster.
elsevilla Featured By Owner Jul 18, 2014  Professional Digital Artist
You still need an anchor, to know what the market is, not knowing what people like this days its a bad thing. You can be creative as you like but that stuff wont sell. As an illustrator you want to sell, you dont want a unique thing that wont sell at all.
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