I think part of the reason I felt the need to do that here is because in my mind, you liking my art means potentially you like me as a person. This is not necessarily the case, but maybe in some instances it is.
Since a while back when all of us UDON folks went off to our own places away from a centralized studio, I've started to feel a sort of distance from the scene and my cohorts. As time went on, I got married and now have two kids, while manyof my coworkers don't and that is not a chastisement.
However, having a family of your own is a full time thing and one that needs constant communication and planning to get the most of. Many things that seem so unclear manifest themselves only well after the point, and all in all its a learning game that never stops.
Because of a number of factors, I also just turned off all external media out of sheer disinterest. I never watched tv and it has been turned off in our home for over one year. I want to throw it out, its and old CRT Trinitron. I stopped reading any manga or books, stopped playing any video games, and I don't have an interest in movies.
I said to myself, be the one to make the story and entertainment, not imbibe it. And as a result you have 5C.
What this means is that many a time I have nothing at all in common to talk to my cohorts about, since most of what they'll talk about is entertainment. I am concerned about my kids and my marriage and those are distant issues they don't care to relate to or can't even if they wanted to. I am not laying judgement, but I assure you it is a fact many folks nowadays go sailing into their thirties with no desire for marriage or kids whatsoever. That's their choice and I respect it.
But obviously, this creates a rift. I've been dubbed responsible, and I actually heard things like " you have kids? But you're a young guy!" when I was 32. It's lifestyle choice, and everyone is allowed to choice what they like and reap the rewards and consequences alike.
Now this is where you guys come in.
When you guys comment on my art, especially on 5th Capsule, I really get a lot of support. I mean, I look forward to your comments. My day is basically in complete silence, I just work and am left with my thoughts, I get home and spend time with my family, but again none of the things I love can be discussed with ease or understanding, and I am talking about art. My wife isn't an artist, and we talk mostly about family stuff and other things.
I've made my decisions on life and have no regrets, though it has left me a bit of an oddball in the industry in a way. I have no close friends that I talk to on the norm as we no longer have anything in common and my time is so limited and they live far away, but having you guys comment and interact really makes my day.
It really does help me a lot. You may see yourselves as fans, but a good deal of you I consider friends because you actually care what I'm doing, how I'm progressing, and my striving.
So here's to you guys, I appreciate you and hope all of you have great things in your life whatever you chose and that I can at the very least provide you with decent entertainment!
You are awesome.
I know I'm just another random fan on your page, but I just wanted you to know how important you are to some of us. Thanks for being around and thanks for being you.
i love the way 5C goes on , and i really wish you enjoy the most of it, because as i fan i feel that every second i wait is well worth it!
I have distanced myself from comics , having only reading some special editions and things like that because the quality dropped a lot (or i just outgrew things i liked?) but man , things like 5c make me come back, ALWAYS
As for DnB I have been listening to a lot of accelerated culture sets from the turn of the century, andy c, zinc, and blackamrket. and brockie too.
I've always made sure the person you see here is the actual person I am, I don't do that whole public and private face thing.
Wish you all the best in your journey!
It's always nice to hear that you're not the only one who has walked away from a lot of what is "normal" to devote yourself to your characters' lives.
What you do is important. Sure... for a lot of people watching your stories it's a 10-15 second devouring of several hours of your life. There are others who are genuinely touched, that carry their story with them. People who think about these characters you're giving so much of your time to. People who accept them and even have genuine feelings toward them.
Even further, I'm happy you posted this because you're more than just a conduit for your characters. You're just as deserving of being known as they are.... which I'm sure you know. I'm rambling. xD
I'll keep watching as long as you keep posting. :3 You're doing great!
It was based around the idea of adding time onto your life span based on how much time others spent looking at the thing you made. Sure, most will spend only that 10-15 seconds peeking at all your hard work, but multiply that by the 2,000 who looked at your latest page, or the 10,000 who have peeked at the comic you promote on your front page?
Through those two pages alone, that would add up to (through some averaging) over 43 hours of appreciation and, in some cases, adoration. xD
Hope your life is going well and continues to do so if it is. I really should get around to reading 5C...but I bought Girl7, so that's a plus, right?
I am just a guy who's thing is to draw and tell stories, other people have other cool attributes and everyone has something.
We're born, we eat, it comes out, we die. There's no room to be arrogant.
Im kind of in that position at my current place of employment.
Im the very nerdy, techy guy who is into art, audio/video, etc. and they are the sports, celebrities, bands types (all of which i dont know about really). We may not have that much in common but we still find things to talk about and such because we all want to. I may not get it all, but i try to get active with it and because we all try it ends up being proactive. I cant say for certain but it seems from the little info I have here they dont want to make the effort to be interested in your interests? I know you're probably not lookin for my view on it lol, but I will say glad we here at DA can be of help in just supporting your work :]
First, I didn't even know that the Udon crew didn't work together in some office thing. It must feel a bit lonely.
But this is coming from me, a guy who's at the other side of the spectrum from you.
I'm the same age as you are, but hopelessly single. It's not by choice, every day of my life, I long to settle down and have kids, but it seems like women have little love to give to overweight geeks like me. The older I'm getting, the less likely I am going to have kids, and it pains me. I guess this just how men are hardwired in the end. Reproducing
So the only thing I could do to fill that void was friends and entertainment. But it got to a point where those weren't enough anymore, so I started drawing my own webcomic, Frivolesque. To give me some sort of purpose in life.
It kinda worked though. Aside from my day job, it's basically the only thing I do now in my free time, with little time for video games, tv series or movies. (with a few exceptions)
Stopping hanging with my friend, though, was never even an option. They mean the world to me.
So yeah. My webcomic will probably never be as good (or as popular, lol) as 5C, but it's still hugely time-consuming. It does manage to fill a good chunk of that big hole in my life. And it allowed me to meet more artistically inclined people too, that I used to fill the holes in my friend lineup left by those who, like you, decided not to see their friends anymore once family happened.
It has become like that sometimes, like that scene from the 80's movies with the alien contact and the guy is moulding a mountina shape out of his mashed poatoes.
It's nice reading your journals and I'd say you're not an oddball. In my opinion, you have that kind of normal life that I would love for myself as well. But I'm only 27, I haven't even found a direction for my life yet, except for this distant dream of marriage and settling down, coming to terms with myself.
In short, everything you've written in this journal makes you an admirable person in my books
Thank for the kind words!
You're very welcome
I understand, I got my kids before thirty, and keeping friend around it's a sort of challenge... I got devoted to my family for twenty years and now I can watch anime, read manga, draw on the street and the (grown up) kids follow me.
I'm approaching forty now and taking good time with your family, it pay back!
Have a great whatever (day, evening, night)
Well, my two daughters both love drawing, though I don't push it on them...
A lot of people think you must be DIRECTLY inspired/knowledgeable by the work of others in order to explore what you are good at yourself, but i think there's a direct danger of being too samey or a copycat then. I try to just do my own thing and if some professional or whoever thinks it's not legit enough, then who cares I think being immersed in stuff is fan territory. Being a creator means you have less motivation for that. Creator vs consumer. My comic is actually about that... >_>;
Me and my guy don't have a family yet (I'm 32) but I can see how it must be a very absorbing thing and it will definitely influence your work. People get their inspiration from all sources and I think it's more healthy to be inspired by things you actually care about, rather than things you feel you're obliged to be.
Being an artist is very difficult sometimes because of the silence, especially when you're working on intensive projects because they require so MUCH focus. So your brain kind of runs loopdeloops on a number of things (which isn't always fantastic). The internet i kind of use as my little window into talking to people, though to my clients it probably looks like im slacking off, but its honestly the only thing i do, lol. Need to keep my sanity *_* I go through moments of 'oh god i hate my life' when the routine starts to grate on me, which causes me to work slower. It's hard because i came from a busy office environment at SEGA with a huge group of social friends to sitting in this room hunched over a tablet every day. Its a lttle bit maddening but I look up to artists like you who seem to do it without problem or complaint and think I should just keep working hard. The one thing i want to do more than anything is share my Engelbaum story, but first i have to complete all my client projects, so that's my motivation right now. It seems incredibly far away, even if its just a few months. Kinda painful... when you're just wanting to wake up in the morning and say 'RIGHT! today's the day i start sharing my own stuff for real!'.
I used to live on DA... lol. But now i feel guilty i hardly log in. But I have to get back into the habit of building up my community again since these people are the lovey ones funding it. It's a balance lol.
tldr; theres nothing ever wrong with caring about your work and knowing the directions you want to take it, nomatter the obstacles.
Part of the reason I stopped watching stuff is so that I would not be caught up in the same ol same ol. I want 5C to be as weird as like, slow or fast as I like, sappy, smart ass-y, cars. All these things aren't combined in any story I know of.
I had to pay my dues in the industry for over a decade and a half. I worked on cool job, and not so cool jobs, but at the end of it all it could be summed up as one giant commercial. So 5C is not for the suits, its for you guys. I set goals, but all those client jobs sharpened me for this. I would never have been able to work on 5c years back. I actually needed to be frustrated with my work situation to drive me to this.
dA has had the most diligent and consistent fans. FB and Tumblr are narrow. My next batch of fans will be from here, so I will cater to them as much as I can.
I find it odd that people are settling down later and later but as you stated each to their own.
the only thing our tv gets used for is xbox and that's more of a weekend thing. life is so packed and I dislike it terribly as I really wish to follow my passion in art.
I choose to be wise though and am grateful for my steady job to pay bills and support family.
the art world is harsh and with no degree I feel very few people can free lance it. I could never put my family at financial risk due to that
you are an inspiration and to be there for your family is incredible and rare. keep up the amazing work and for sharing your talent and story
thank you for reaching out to us here on DA it makes my day
Only professional artists will tell you that this is a very up and down job you have to plan for, and be prepared not for rain days, but rainy months.